INFJ is my personality type – to keep it short, I am a Highly Sensitive Introvert. I discovered my personality type about 6 months ago, at age 23. Tears flowed, and I went through some major changes since then. Positive ones 🙂
My household growing up was filled with Extraverts, and I shared a room with my 2 ENFP older brothers, to say the least, I didn’t have very much alone time. Add school into the mix, and you should now have a slightly better picture of the amount of time I had to recharge daily.
Keep in mind that I had no idea that I was an Introvert growing up, my parents actually told me that they didn’t exist, and that we are all the same. At the time, I believed them. They even made it seem bad, like the tone of their voice and the confidence in their belief put the thought of being an Introvert into a negative light for me. I guess I didn’t have any reason to doubt them though, they were much older and wiser than me I thought. My “INFJness” told me to blend in to keep harmony, I couldn’t let the people around me know that I felt different.
In High School, home for me was a tiny ghetto apartment with 2 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms. Privacy did not exist. And the environment outside was too shady to be hanging out in. I chose to stay inside all the time. I would come straight home from school by either walking, or taking the bus. If I walked home then I could use the money that my Dad gave me for the bus to buy a snack, which I did often.
My routine was to rush home, pretend and act like I was okay, put on my headphones, and lose myself in anime. It was the one thing that I looked forward to most during the day. The other thing was sleep, so I could let my imagination run wild.
When I would watch anime, I found that I would feel so much better. It was completely different than when I was at school, or when I was constantly putting on an “act” for my family/friends. Anime was my escape, it kept me sane. Not to mention that it was very interesting to me. The art, the language, the story, the music, the emotion, the personalities, I loved it all and was greatly intrigued.
I even went on to study Japanese for over 5 years now. And I still watch anime, as well as study regularly. I even recently started my own Japanese translation service!
My interest in the Japanese language and culture actually completely got me out of comfort zone as an INFJ. I guess my passion for it was greater than my fear of people. I even studied abroad in Nagasaki, Japan in 2015. I learned so much about other cultures and languages, the experience is something I wouldn’t trade for the world.
So thank you anime, for comforting me as a young INFJ, and then for getting me out my comfort zone as an adult.
Oh man, I’m starting to tear up a bit… I miss these guys. I think I really needed to write this blog post because I feel an amazing amount of relief right now haha