It’s been a while since I’ve updated the story but things have changed. Here is the previous part of the story in case you missed it – (part 4). This is the story about the girl who I suspect is my twin flame.
I know I said previously in the story that I have no doubt in my mind that she is my twin flame but that’s not exactly true. I definitely have my doubts and my faith is not absolute… but I think there is really no other explanation to all of this.
About 2 months ago she did end up responding to my messages. I asked her,
“So do you hate me or something? Like if you saw me walking down the street would you turn the other way?”
She replied that it wasn’t that bad. She said that she has faith in me that I will grow and that she is in a selfish place right now and nothing good could come out of this. This was very relieving to hear, I mean at least we are not on bad terms and it’s good to know that she has faith in me.
However, since then I texted her periodically and she didn’t respond to anything I said. Actually the last time I texted her was just a few days ago. I really think I need to stop being so attached and remain independent. I shouldn’t think of silence as a negative thing because we are both healing and growing. My heart is telling me that I shouldn’t contact her anymore and that I should just have faith in both her and the universe. However, this is not exactly the easiest task in the world for me. I can’t even look at this blog without thinking of her because she was the one who inspired me to make it.
I really have an attachment towards her and it kills me inside sometimes. The moment she came into my life everything was flipped upside down. Seriously, my life has COMPLETELY changed since she came into my life about 7 months ago. I mean she has been in my life for years and I first met her almost 4 years ago but as soon as she introduced Numerology to me my life has never been the same…there is no way to reverse this and I have no choice but to accept reality and deal with it. I mean things have been changing for the better and I’ve been making some real progress in my life. And as much as it pains me sometimes I am really grateful that all of this happened.
I think I just really want to be in contact with her. I just want some kind of connection even if it’s just a friendship and it hurts that I can’t have that. The fact that I have this abnormal connection to her leaves me no choice but to believe that she in my twin. But nothing will change as long as I continue thinking this way. The only way things will change is if I accept the fact that we may never reunite, in the physical realm at least.
So now I just need to fully accept this and let go. Have faith in the universe and stop being so negative. Only then will things start to change. I am going to work on being more independent and focus on staying positive. Focus on raising my vibration, that’s all I can do now.