So I met this girl (part 5)

It’s been a while since I’ve updated the story but things have changed. Here is the previous part of the story in case you missed it – (part 4). This is the story about the girl who I suspect is my twin flame.

I know I said previously in the story that I have no doubt in my mind that she is my twin flame but that’s not exactly true. I definitely have my doubts and my faith is not absolute… but I think there is really no other explanation to all of this.

About 2 months ago she did end up responding to my messages. I asked her,

“So do you hate me or something? Like if you saw me walking down the street would you turn the other way?”

She replied that it wasn’t that bad. She said that she has faith in me that I will grow and that she is in a selfish place right now and nothing good could come out of this. This was very relieving to hear, I mean at least we are not on bad terms and it’s good to know that she has faith in me.

However, since then I texted her periodically and she didn’t respond to anything I said. Actually the last time I texted her was just a few days ago. I really think I need to stop being so attached and remain independent. I shouldn’t think of silence as a negative thing because we are both healing and growing. My heart is telling me that I shouldn’t contact her anymore and that I should just have faith in both her and the universe. However, this is not exactly the easiest task in the world for me. I can’t even look at this blog without thinking of her because she was the one who inspired me to make it.

I really have an attachment towards her and it kills me inside sometimes. The moment she came into my life everything was flipped upside down. Seriously, my life has COMPLETELY changed since she came into my life about 7 months ago. I mean she has been in my life for years and I first met her almost 4 years ago but as soon as she introduced Numerology to me my life has never been the same…there is no way to reverse this and I have no choice but to accept reality and deal with it. I mean things have been changing for the better and I’ve been making some real progress in my life. And as much as it pains me sometimes I am really grateful that all of this happened.

I think I just really want to be in contact with her. I just want some kind of connection even if it’s just a friendship and it hurts that I can’t have that. The fact that I have this abnormal connection to her leaves me no choice but to believe that she in my twin. But nothing will change as long as I continue thinking this way. The only way things will change is if I accept the fact that we may never reunite, in the physical realm at least.

So now I just need to fully accept this and let go. Have faith in the universe and stop being so negative. Only then will things start to change. I am going to work on being more independent and focus on staying positive. Focus on raising my vibration, that’s all I can do now.

 

 

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Vast World

This world is just so vast,

it’s odd…the many different paths.

 

Born into this world without a choice

then given the freedom to live how we choose.

put to the test at birth,

we have no choice but to do our best.

 

Some of us have the luxury of hitting snooze,

others hit that button and only lose.

 

It’s odd…the many different paths.

This world is just so vast,

with many different cultures

and a long lived past.

 

 

 

Numerology – Life Path Number 4

In Numerology, your life path reveals the traits and skills that you possess to make your life a rewarding one. By studying your life path you will be able to figure out the best way to live your life as smoothly as possible.

If perhaps you are struggling in anything from your career, to your personal relationships, then this is the number that you will want to take a solid look at.

You can calculate your life path number here —> Cafeastrology.com

or

You can calculate it yourself by taking a look at the example below.

First take a look at your full birth date.

06/21/1983

Next, add all of the numbers together.

6 + 2 + 1 + 1 + 9 + 8 + 3 = 30

The sum of all the numbers is 30.

However, in Numerology you have to reduce down as far as it will go.

30 reduces down to 3. 30 = 3 + 0 = 3.

So your life path number will be 3 in this case.


Life path number 4

If your life path number is 4 then you have a need for structure and organization in your life. Not only do you need these things to feel sane, you will find that your greatest success will come when you approach things in an organized manner.

You possess a hard working nature and your determination knows no bounds. You are understanding, responsible, and cautious. You also have great respect for rules and authority. Not only that, you understand why such things are necessary for society to function. Rules and structure are your life line. If there are no rules in place then you will create some for yourself. You cannot stand being in a chaotic environment where the people do not even understand the meaning of the word organization.

Those who posses the number 4 are the builders of the world. You will approach life with a sense of practicality. Slowly but surely, you will make your mark in the world as you put in the work and watch the time you invest turn into something real and tangible. You work well by yourself but can also excel in the group setting as long as everyone is on the same page. 

Negatively, you may be prone to panic attacks when faced with chaotic situations. Change is something that you find hard to deal with because you are most comfortable when things remain the same and follow a routine. Be careful of your tendency to become too controlling because it can become a roadblock to your path to success.

Ultimately, your purpose is to turn your dreams into reality by using your structure based nature to build and create. Craft the life of your choice, and make sure you have a well thought out plan.